in this stage of my experiments with ideas I've found that evil is an entirely ugly thing. Ugly in many ways but truly ugly because of what it requires of those that delve into it's depths. To understand evil, the innocence is stripped away and a good deal of naivete, and through that the wounds are significantly more than what was first thought. Of course, if your a victim the conclusion is that life is unfair, if you strive, fight and bleed your way through it, it is a life experience that changes your perspective.

Now a question is... is it necessary to willingly seek out the questions of evil... or is it really a natural consequence of living that evil occurs? Or perhaps, it was never evil at all that I was searching for but simply a way to express the pain inside myself. I'd have to say that I have expressed and will continue to. But.. I consider this pain evil and I am willing to experiment with different forms of literature in order to get this pain out in a readable format for others to contemplate. Perhaps, my great experiment can continue in this way.

We will see. Also, I've found an insight into mercy. It is given because of Pity, because it is either useless to the extending of a curtain of power over one that is weak to one that is strong, physically or otherwise, and potentially gains not a noteworthy footnote in history, but merely that one is merciless and without the ability to feel compassion, or the fear that the darkness surrounding an act of evil does not compromise this individuals sense of justice. Thus, a person of this bleak character has no sense of justice, or perhaps perverted enough to find these acts acceptable. Where the notion of mercy either lets the victim get away with an injustice, or that through an act of mercy either a reputation is not held up. However, reputation does not entirely describe why an act of mercy is given or withheld.

Perhaps, the act of instilling fear gives one a rush of power over another, and to back out does not consummate the fantasy, or rush of power one feels when a life is in their hands.

Any thoughts?

-DoomiT-