Ok

So the last time I made this public I wondered... did the message stick? Well, considering someone had a shower at 3:30am in fucking morning, I guess not. What was my message, I can't SLEEP!? that's my fucking message, heyh NO SLEEP makes luke very volatile, unpredictable and I don't enjoy all of the usual outlets I have. Eventually, everything tastes bad and I'm torn and manipulated. So! What the fuck am I supposed to do?

I don't quite know the answers, try and get some hours of sleep. But it's too late already. Try and get online and waste hours I could be doing something productive. Nah

Should I make another message? Well, the first wasn't received very well, and obviously, it did not stick and make an impact so... one has to wonder.

Anyway, I wonder where positive emotions are, I wonder if there are any in this world anymore. Perhaps, if I make an effort to go back to the gym instead of neglecting it, I'll make headway. Well, huns and buns... I'm also wondering.. if I catch them in the act again, perhaps I can make it perfectly clear to them? NOT AT THIS HOUR!?

But hey... fuck me right? I make a point clear and it's ignored, I make several requests and I'm ignored, I try and reach out and solve my mental issues and I'm listened to and then forgotten? HEY! Luke's still here and he needs help.

LUKE is tired as fuck and needs sleep. Luke can't sleep because some bitch is taking a shower and using a blow dryer to dry her hair. I SLEEP with wet hair and it's fine! When I do sleep that is.

Will I ever live a normal life again? A job, sleep at night, real food on the table... and friends?

Should I stop complaining? Well, I can't so no I won't. I can't because there's too much angst inside, far too much anger. And I am unsure where to put it.