We must serve in darkness to understand the light, to be greeted by it and appreciate the finest subtle differences between radiance and decay. And why one is genuinely darkness and the other is beautiful light. And why light is good while darkness is evil. Perhaps, this raises difficult questions as to what darkness and evil share in common. And why radiance and light are synonymous with goodness.

Evil is seen as a murky, treacherous terrain and that is best described as Darkness. However, what if darkness is simply a shade upon which reality is presented in a different context that is not understood as evil, necessarily. Perhaps, darkness is a state of perception upon which one views the world in the night time rather than the daytime. And the absence of radiant light from the sun, street light, or other light source, creates darkness purely out of necessity. It is not necessary to assume "evil" when darkness covers the city after a certain hour has past. Despite the common saying that evil lurks in the dark places of this planet, only because of a common misconception that evil can only exist in darkness while the light holds witness to evils everyday and many that commit evil do exist as well in the night, as in the day time. It is ignorant to say that the daylight has any special power beyond the clarity of sight it grants the human race, most of them.

All for now.

in this stage of my experiments with ideas I've found that evil is an entirely ugly thing. Ugly in many ways but truly ugly because of what it requires of those that delve into it's depths. To understand evil, the innocence is stripped away and a good deal of naivete, and through that the wounds are significantly more than what was first thought. Of course, if your a victim the conclusion is that life is unfair, if you strive, fight and bleed your way through it, it is a life experience that changes your perspective.

Now a question is... is it necessary to willingly seek out the questions of evil... or is it really a natural consequence of living that evil occurs? Or perhaps, it was never evil at all that I was searching for but simply a way to express the pain inside myself. I'd have to say that I have expressed and will continue to. But.. I consider this pain evil and I am willing to experiment with different forms of literature in order to get this pain out in a readable format for others to contemplate. Perhaps, my great experiment can continue in this way.

We will see. Also, I've found an insight into mercy. It is given because of Pity, because it is either useless to the extending of a curtain of power over one that is weak to one that is strong, physically or otherwise, and potentially gains not a noteworthy footnote in history, but merely that one is merciless and without the ability to feel compassion, or the fear that the darkness surrounding an act of evil does not compromise this individuals sense of justice. Thus, a person of this bleak character has no sense of justice, or perhaps perverted enough to find these acts acceptable. Where the notion of mercy either lets the victim get away with an injustice, or that through an act of mercy either a reputation is not held up. However, reputation does not entirely describe why an act of mercy is given or withheld.

Perhaps, the act of instilling fear gives one a rush of power over another, and to back out does not consummate the fantasy, or rush of power one feels when a life is in their hands.

Any thoughts?

-DoomiT-

I've had no clear education on this word and that statement alone puts a downer on the whole essay I am about to write with my thoughts on this word. However, since I do not know what something is, I have every opportunity to ask many people what it is. What do we consider evil in today's society, and how is evil lurking in our minds in a way to better understand it? However, in understanding anything, I am committing myself to starting a journey that could ultimately lead to a heinous destruction. What you study poison's you. It was certainly that way with Philosophy. So... with evil in mind. What are the safeguards?

Well, sometime ago I examined manipulation and control using relationships, sex, influence of family, power and position, and realized that manipulation occurs when you let it, and then your soul is given to your manipulator to do what they make you do, because you let them decide for you, or deciding "With" you. With, meaning that a decision is heavily influenced to the side of the manipulator rather than your own decision making process, eventually, every move is monitored for a bigger, grander cause, not your own. So, to protect against such a thing, this will not occur because I will not let it. Let's all hope I am successful in this.

Another problem arises with safeguards when there is something you want to learn, that you did not know you wanted to learn, and that stimulates your desire to learn. This is done because something amazing, flashy, and desirable is put before you and instantly, it is beyond your ability. Or, you believe it is beyond your ability, and as such, you are drawn to learn how it was done so wonderfully.

I use "You" to denote the person(s) in the current state of amazement, or are overcome with the desire to learn, and have been inundated with the experience that stimulates learning from a perceived state of ignorance into a believed state of enlightenment about any given subject.

I use Perceived and Believed to be that once a realization of a void is created, or found. There are those that would seek to fill this void, or belief of a void, with information the teachers, artists, or third parties believe will answer the question set forth by the performance, or media brought towards you. The answer, may or may not be what was originally sought after, and indeed, you might not even know the question in it's entirety because of the urge to leap before one has looked.

So, with that said, to understand the question before you seek to have it answered. You should always try to answer yourself, before consulting other forms of media, or information. There are very clear points which denote how one comes to realize they need to learn a given subject.

1.) They clearly do not understand a fact, or idea, or steps and instructions for a task are clearly misunderstood. And, instruction, orientation, and education is necessary because tasks are done inefficiently, ideas are presented unclearly, or facts are misrepresented. And someone could just say, I don't know because they believe in their heads they do not. However, one must always realize that the tools, steps and mindset is always at hand, it is just our understanding of how to put them together to achieve a task, a greater understanding, or knowledge of a fact is sometimes a void, in and of itself.

2.) When one believes outside sources of media that have fueled information to answer many questions inaccurately. Upon critical analysis the ideas, facts and instructions are misrepresented in such a manner that denotes clear misunderstanding of ideas glossed over by cliches and common assumptions given by media sources of the day. However, while the media gives a certain amount of correct information about ideas they speak about, it is never the whole truth of an idea. Merely, a beginning if one wishes to learn more and unravel the assumptions and what those assumptions are based on to begin to form a basis of foundation in which to build information that ultimately leads to a conclusion within the person's mind about the idea given by a form of media.

3.) An idea may be learnt to a greater degree than most, and may have a sound foundation upon which more accurate information is built. Thus, the seeker of knowledge may want another opinion, or perspective upon an idea to give unanswered questions a new light upon which to contemplate or to compare data already recovered from research.

Obviously, there are different levels of knowledge and thus, different levels of people out there. As there would be in any given discussion. While this side discussion may yield interesting ideas and further discussions. What are ideas? What is critical analysis? And how does one interpret media sources to be inaccurate or noteworthy? All worthy questions and how does this side discussion about the limits of ignorance and the limits of enlightenment have to do with my overall discussion of evil? Well, I wish to protect myself, as was previously mentioned. In attempting to do so, one must be sure of oneself and their intentions and questions, educated and definite, in their mind.

So, with these protections in place, I will educate myself on what I consider evil and place my original ideas here and then scrutinize them with my perspective upon media sources and interpret them to be either useful, useless. Time will tell if any of these outside sources hold. They may or may not.

Is this enough? To understand many ideas, especially one as vague, and as vast, as the idea of "evil" it may take a good long, long time to do a useful job. Heck, Deviantart.com may not be around that long, but this is a decent place to start such an exploration. And! No one can stop me! Not even the ants that creep and crawl on the windowsills! I KNOW WHO THEY WORK FOR! The bastards...

Ok seriously. What is evil? What's the idea of it? How is one to become and how does one fall out of being evil, or considered evil? In our mindset, from our perceptions, what is evil can be a vague and highly misunderstood and overused word. It's as sublime as love, I believe. How do i come to such a rash statement? It's because, in today's world, both are misused to the same degree to describe emotions and situations that other words would be better used to describe.

Evil, by itself, has a quality of absoluteness within many minds of today's world and the past, and likely, the future. It also has an unbalanced sense of ambiguity and obscurity, as to what is truly evil, aside from what is known to be evil, or assumed to be evil, by the general population apart from the educated population. Thusly, to speak of evil within this singular term has limits the extent of an analysis I am willing to undertake. To speak of Evil, within the confines of the immense meaning behind the word, brings too many perspectives within such a small word to define it, understand it and ultimately, draw a conclusion. With many perspectives, an innumerable amount definitely, the original idea is lost and the question is uneducated with one's own conclusion on third party sources, citing a flaw written about above.

So, how to solve this problem? I may contradict myself and say that evil is too large a word to undertake. And, I agree to a point, that evil is an immense, loaded and volatile word. Evil can be misconstrued to be many different emotions, results of emotions, results of circumstances, based on perceptions, and because our perceptions skew, we are slanted in our view of evil. All offering a grain of the truth, and a whole bucket load of nonsense. As I have done, and will do. Because we all will, despite what our egos would have us believe.

Our Ego. Now there is another problem. Our ego lets us believe a lot of things to avoid hurting it. Most times, it takes a great amount of mental strain to take a beating to our ego, and the pride that is hurt as a result. Pride that I expect to be hurt here, even if it leads to a drastic realization that it's fruitless to learn about evil, too hard a topic for one as simple as me. But, as I said before, the ants won't get me and neither will you! I only ask that everyone who wishes to involve themselves within this discussion give feedback, lies, truth, inescapable logic and the denials they give themselves. Ok, sarcasm noted, I want help.

I seem to be noting problems early on and I do this to get a foundation and a method too doing this research effectively rather than bump and grind at these issues on the way. I only hope when problems do arise, that I am able to constrict them and root them out effectively as well.

So to leave you all with a question...

Is evil not so much in anyone's perspective, as to what they consider evil, but rather the results of these perspectives acted out upon the world?

-DoomiT-

I've always considered this word to be misunderstood. Friends are precious people, sometimes though people mistake friend to be many different things. Abusive habits, drugs, alcohol, the internet, spending, gambling, sex, depression, mental diseases, abusive spouses. Most of these I've been near, or been involved in at some time or other. And, I am left asking myself, through it all I've not kept friends from any of those times. Nothing comes from those moments except, experience... and a horrible knowledge of smells, tastes and aftershocks. All things we use to define our future, except they make our past dented, torn, and jagged enough for us to never bring it up in conversation.

But I've strayed from the subject at hand, digressed as it were. In the word friend, one has reliability, trust, companionship, understanding (and a willingness to further understand), sacrifice, and renewal. Here in this day and age, the component required for any friendship to blossom is being replaced by a digital media system that conquers the intolerably resistant human soul. One that we all use. Of all the things Throbbing gristle made me realize, it was that the internet is transparent. The rest of the death and decay of that sound has left me and it was for the better anyway. Suicide rested there and I'm not ready to die so young. 28 and I'm still young.

If friends, and the natural component to connect emotionally, realistically, is taken away and replaced with a cold unfeeling system like the internet, what will become of human relationships, conversations, morality and the justice we all share with each other when we meet? Will we forget how to understand and believe in our ability to handle these situations because we learn different rules in a computerized world? Will the rules change? Are we, in fact, honouring the decay of collective human understanding by connecting online and becoming numbers, reduced, reused and forgotten for who we really are?

We become reduced because while we were known for many different successful aspects of our lives, we lose this constant in our lives when our names are replaced by character names that have grandiose lives and amazing adventures, but none of it's real. As well, we are assaulted by many different ego's telling us we aren't nearly as cool, or as powerful as they are. So, while the mature folks know this is a pathetic cry to be heard, the less stable of us try as much as we can to be powerful, as if somehow were threatened by someone else. This goes both ways, whoever throws their awesomeness into a conversation and denies everyone elses ability to stand and shine, however transparent and intangible displays like this are, we are all dwarfed because one man has to be on top and nothing can be done to stop it. And everyone eventually views the individual with contempt... they no longer are a person, because of a huge tendency to see him as the character is portrayed. We lose ourselves in what others see in us. The mirror alters what we see in ourselves, and quite darkly.

We become different people, several personalities, to hide, run and become incognito. In a way, this is related to the discussion one paragraph up, but if we become too many people. Where are we?

Another thing is that... friends are constantly coming and going, and while something that you worked hard for stood for something some years ago. These same tangible values seem to be slipping when choices involving betrayal, love, and secrets becomes a question of how can I get away with it? When usually, there was an emotional connection holding the guilty face in our hands, there is nothing now. These simple facial twitches and tears, no longer are seen. We simply choose not to show them, and we censor ourselves to pull off a con, a lie, a white collar lie. The terrible bits of accidents and mistakes and I messed up, I apologize becomes how much truth do i need to tell them? The internet allows for lies to grow, culminate and increasingly demand of us the ability to selectively monitor each and every word, and its easier than it is in real life where our tone of voice could give us away. In this forum, there is no tone of voice.

How does this all relate to Friends? Well... the notion of real friends becomes lost if we immerse ourselves in the internet. However, there is hope. All we need is the choice to turn on, tune in and burn out. Or... we can all choose to invest in ourselves. Make plans to meet, make regular visits, put in some cash for book or poetry clubs. Talk with those that you live with, have a nice conversation after a fight in a silly online video game and the perspective changes. Friends give us the ability to discard that which does not matter, truly slide. And we grasp onto what truly does matter, loving our friends. Feeling again, becoming accountable to our feelings is what friends really do for us. Something I have always been at odds with, since I hate showing my true self to anyone. Though, there was a moment last night where I felt it almost burst out. Perhaps, my self control is too strong, but they noticed.

I hope folks comment constructively. I`m not having the readership I used to, but at least there`s a following.

-DoomiT-

Teaching is done by erasing what people know and replacing it with what you know, because you assume this is better than what they knew, and there is a great fallacy in that. What they knew carries them forward, and you insult them by saying it isn't any good. Perhaps, in this arrogance, there is a great mistake made to many young people, me included, that brought themselves to realize what they knew held them together. Racial bands, and racial propoganda leaders, Tom Metzger and Boyd Rice, take what one knows, throws it out and replaces it with their rhetoric dogma that ensnares the mind with the perplexing complexity of thought, enlightenment and the rebirth from the ashes of despair. Their sick world is as dark as they proclaim, as it is proclaimed in many movies, and just as dark as the industrial music made by artists supporting this view.

Some industrial music asks you to take yourself out of the picture, everything you know, and adopt something new and unexplored. One wonders what would happen if people actually took the plunge. I love industrial music because it challenges my mind, but at what cost? Will I start to hate my roomies because they're japanese? what kind of utter nonsense is that, but seriously, the distinct possibility exists that someone can be convinced of anything, despite how crazy it sounds. By the way, I love my roomies, I just have a hard time communicating with anyone right now.

Think on this.

-DoomiT-